So out of it | whoslife's Blog

I'm kind of out of control nowadays.
In constant anxiety, teary and irrational. Of no reason at all. Acting out of dimensions. The next day I wonder what the hell I was doing or thinking.
And the shame. Over everything, every mistake, every damage I've ever done. Feeling like such a failure. I know we all are like that, imperfect, but the difference is I can't stand it. I don't know how you live with yourselves.
I should just suppress it, witness the suffering and let it happen. Not fight the cruelty, just pass by like everyone else.
It's not mine to decide what is a worthy existence, pain is also life. Like I learned from the sociopath.
So I placed the dying bird in a soft place in the bushes and left it to die in peace.
Cried all the way home.

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